a bunch of little good things happened to me in succession right now and i’m feeling so happy! first i went to go pick up the $$ big commission monies $$ from the tiny painting i did and i had a really nice conversation with the guy who hired me, then on the way home i screamed/sang along to the tracks off darklands and as soon as “happy when it rains” started playing i had a premonition it would rain and after a few moments i could smell wet asphalt and it actually started to sprinkle, and to top it all off i got off the freeway as soon as the cops started to barricade traffic to a standstill, and now i’m home having a celebratory drink. i hope everyone else is having a nice night!
birth control is giving me highly intensified mood swings—complete apathy to blind rage in just seconds—and i can tell it’s affecting my relationships with people… hopefully the side effects diminish soon
… you know that scene in howl’s moving castle when he throws a tantrum over his hair not being the right color and pulls out that “i see no point in living if i can’t be beautiful line”? that’s me right now except i accidentally turned my hair silver instead of white/platinum and i bleached it badly so my hair is also falling out in chunks and i am losing hair in handfuls and i look like a sad mess